All i want to do is let out my feelings, Everything i've ever felt and everything I've ever wanted, I just wish i could spill it all out onto the table. The pain, the lies, the way i've been hiding myself.
There is a verse in the bible that says "At that moment, their eyes were open, and they suddenly felt shame at their nakedness." Gen. 3:7
I dont want to cover myself up anymore. I want to dance in the street with complete openness. I want my life to be a glass, clear and perfect. But being human, that is not a possibility. There is no way that, being who we are, we can maintain a clear conscience at all times. Because we are all sinners.
But at the same time, i see mankind as basically good. Although that seems to change more and more as life goes on. i begin to see the cheating husbands and wives, the men who beat their loved ones, the people who walk out on their families because they are sick of what they have...
In all honesty, what has our world come to?
Has it always been this bad, and its just taken me forever to see it? it makes me think that maybe ignorance is bliss after all. the less you know about the world, the less it can hurt you.
Life has never been harder for me than it is right now. I've had problems in the past, sure, but Im sure I've never been in this situation before....
How will this end for me? Im not sure. but I know that God will be by my side, whether i want him there or not. And let me tell you, i don't just want Him at my side.
I need Him there.
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