Hey gang.
So I've been thinking a lot lately, which happens frequently, and I tend to lose sleep because I think about things so much. However, that is beside the point.
Today I had youth group, and, as usual, I had something to hear. Today we talked about success. Last week, we went into detail about the worldly view of success vs. the view of success as voiced by God. The difference is night and day. This week, though, we talked about how to reach the success we were made to have. Success in life and in God, the way He meant it to be.
We talked about what is holding us back, and how we lose focus on God because we are so focused on our burdens. I learned that the more we focus on our issues, the harder they are to overcome, and I realized that this message was meant for me. Every issue I ever encounter consumes me until I am so lost in it that God takes the back seat. I am sick of that!
I want to give God the from seat of everything I do. I'm thinking about it now, and just doing that alone would change everything for me. All the problems and things that I feel like I need would be completely covered. My lack of confidence, my struggle with knowing what to do with my life, and where to go... All of it, God would have covered.
What is my problem then? Why am I not handing everything over right now?
Because, maybe, I am afraid? I am afraid to see what God will bring to the surface. I am afraid to know what I have hidden in my heart that I have let lay dormant for so long I have forgotten. I want to know, tho. I want to know things about myself that I cannot remember. I want to stop doubting God, and let Him lead me through the valley of the shadow of death, and truely fear no evil, for God is with me. Let Him disciple me. Let him discipline me. Let him lead me to places I may not want to go, because I know that He will help me through anything, and anywhere. He will let me know what I am doing wrong, and what I am doing right. What I should be doing, and what I should cast away and never so much as glance at again.
So I will try to begin. I say try because I tend to fail.
If you are reading this, be praying for me. I need it more that I can think. Pray that I keep God at the forfront of my mind. Pray that I think about Him and adore Him in everything that I do.
Also, pray that I find someone to keep me accountable.
Thank you for reading this, and remember, God is strong, and He will let nothing destroy you, as long as you hold strong to Him.
I just added paintball as a tag for no apparent reason. Maybe someone will read this and I will have changed a life! :)
