Oh Crap...

Well, this pretty much sucks.  

One of my good friends is dating this person that i like. 

like a lot. 

Im not going to give any specifics, because, well, no one really needs to know, but whatever. Im blogging it anyways.



I fairly recently decided to not date until i get to college, because i am going to college out of state, and i don't want to get into a serious relationship and then take off. Of course, it just so happens that i end up finding like two people i like. Which really sucks, because I am at that point that i always get to where i really want to date someone. Its been like three months since my last relationship, and it is really hard for me at this point to not date.

You see, I've had a girlfriend almost consistantly since like seventh grade, and i have never really gone much longer than like three months without having a girlfriend since. Nad not, a six month wait is going to kill me. This is about to get really really hard for me. I am so not looking forward to it.

So, encouragement at any point in time would be excellent. Thanks, and love you all...
~Aaron Jay

Music

Music is.... amazing.

Its expresive in ways words could never be. Even the lyrics in songs mean so much more when put to music. It is hard to describe the connection musicians have when performing together. It is something only a musician could ever understand.

And, probably not because of music, but definitely enhanced by it, i have this sensetivity that you don't find in average guys. I mean more than that which comes from my life that i have no control over. its just this indescribably convinient thing.

If only more people understood it. i cannot tell you how many times I have been asked if i was gay. NO, for crying out loud!!! I'm not gay!!!! (for those who were wondering...)

Well, thank you. I have much more to say, but on  different topic.

~Aaron Jay