Do you ever have those times when you just can't seem to find the right music? When life makes no sense, and yet makes all the sense in the world? When life seems to fall apart, and yet be more together than it has ever been? When your life is going to get stressful, and hard, but it is going to lead to something amazing?
I guess everything worth fighting for will give you a fight. And I know its not going to kill me, but i can feel the pain of my last few school weeks already. Final projects, Finals, Family, and choir. I don't see how I could get through this week without have God by my side the entire time. If I don't have some crazy breakdown, I will be shocked out of my mind.
And then there is what's keeping me calm. I have a constant thought of a girl who I can only pray I have not lost. I've been trying to contact her for like a week, and I can never seem to get ahold of. And I hope its not because she doesn't want to talk to me.
Next week, I get to see my dad for the first time in over a year and a half, since I graduated, and I have no idea what to say to him half the time, seeing as we've never really spent a lot of time together. Its something i am so looking forward to, but something I dread at the same time. Hopefully it will not be an awkward three hour car ride to my grandparents' place.
Life is going to get hard, so if your out there reading this, then please, pray for me. I will need it to the extreme. I want to get through it, so keep me in your prayers. Thank you!
Until my next expressive moments
~Aaron Jay
