Who needs air??

"Who Needs Air" is an incredible song by a band called "The Classic Crime".

It just hits me in the most amazing way every time i hear it. 

"I'm drowning, but I don't care. Cause when you've got what I got, what i got... Who needs air?"

This song is saying in the deepest of ways, what what your friends and other people say about you is not important. That you should put yourself out there and give it all up for God. That having him is more important than the air we breathe. Because, when you have God, what more do you need? 

"When God is for us, Who can be against us?"

Sorry this is so short, but I have class now. haha

Keep reading!!

~Aaron

Hate the sin, Love the sinner

You know how people always say that getting rich changes a person? And they usually mean negative things? Well, after spending this last weekend with my dad, and thinking about my mom, I have realized that, so does Christianity. And not always in a positive way.

 Christians are supposed to be loving, and forgiving. As a Christian, I feel I have developed these attributes. But i cannot tell you how many times I see christian bashing on other people. Gays, Blacks, Obama.... The list in continuous. And what is ridiculous is how all these people call themselves christian, when they are not showing it in the deepest way God intended. There is no love. Christians bash on gay people ALL THE TIME, and its about time it came to a stop. Hate the sin, love the sinner. Thats what we should be doing. Instead, we hate the sinner. We take what a person has done, and make it who they are. 

Like the lines in a movie once said, "Its not what you do that defines you, but how you do it." And what you do with what you know. If you know that you are supposed to Love, then do it. Don't just love those who do good to you. Don't just love those you know are chrisrians, or those who are doing good to help our country. LOVE THEM ALL. Love the gays, the murderers, the rapists, the prostitutes. Love them, for we are COMMANDED by God to do so. 

Love them all, and do it well.

~Aaron Jay

Understandably impossible...

Sometimes, i can't understand how we are. I don't mean. like how we were created, thats blaringly obvious to me. What i don't understand is, how in the world can we be the way we are as people, when others bring so much light to our lives? 

Even those who don't understand and know the love of God should be able to see it. I mean, there are so many people out there who have some sense of the world, and can understand that there is something more. There has to be.

Would it even make sense for us to exist if there wasn't a creator? Or a bigger plan? How did it all start? Even if you are an evolutionist, where did it all start? Don't be thinking about the "big bang theory", because thats not even close to the answer I'm looking for. I mean where did that start? Even if it is true, there had to be some way it was created. Some beginning. Everything has a beginning.

Everything, that is, except God. But, for some odd reason, I can understand that. I don't know how, but that is easier for me to grasp than thinking that the "Big Bang" has just been reoccurring for years and years. It makes no sense. It had to start somewhere.

But I think i know. It started with God. And i think it is easier to grasp, because I know that God is a being. I know that He is more than a figment of imaginations, as some people seem to think. And i know that He is more than just an excuse for mankind to find purpose.

And don't ask me how I can be so sure. I don't understand it. I just know, somehow, even through all my doubts and all my thoughts that somehow, somewhere, there is God. He is there, and He does love us. Every single one of us. 

Even when we don't love him back....

~Aaron Jay

Really??

Do you ever have those times when you just can't seem to find the right music? When life makes no sense, and yet makes all the sense in the world? When life seems to fall apart, and yet be more together than it has ever been? When your life is going to get stressful, and hard, but it is going to lead to something amazing?

I guess everything worth fighting for will give you a fight. And I know its not going to kill me, but i can feel the pain of my last few school weeks already. Final projects, Finals, Family, and choir. I don't see how I could get through this week without have God by my side the entire time. If I don't have some crazy breakdown, I will be shocked out of my mind.

And then there is what's keeping me calm. I have a constant thought of a girl who I can only pray I have not lost. I've been trying to contact her for like a week, and I can never seem to get ahold of. And I hope its not because she doesn't want to talk to me.

 Next week, I get to see my dad for the first time in over a year and a half, since I graduated, and I have no idea what to say to him half the time, seeing as we've never really spent a lot of time together. Its something i am so looking forward to, but something I dread at the same time. Hopefully it will not be an awkward three hour car ride to my grandparents' place.

Life is going to get hard, so if your out there reading this, then please, pray for me. I will need it to the extreme. I want to get through it, so keep me in your prayers. Thank you!

Until my next expressive moments

~Aaron Jay

Originality. Or a severe lack of it...

I really dont know what im going to write about...
Maybe i could write about music, though its been done before...
Or maybe philosophy, but thats been done before too...

It makes me wonder if I have ever had an original thought. If every thought i've ever had has been thought by someone else. And what the point of thinking when the only one who TRUELY matters already knows your every thought???

This question has been asked before too... but how often is it answered??? Maybe it should be. Maybe I can answer it, or at least shine what little bit of light on the topic i might be able to scrape out of my less-than-holy mind.

The way I see it, and this should not be used directly for theology, as I have not actually researched it, is that God won't know what happens if it doesn't ever happen. I was recently watching HEROES (premiered last night! WOOT!!!!), and they said something about a "butterfly effect". That something small occuring today could completely alter the way the future will be. If you have a thought in your mind, and you nearly say it, but it never comes out, or you never write it down, or you say it and it causes something, you could alter reality. If computers were never invented, or electricity never discovered, our world as we know it would be indescribably altered. Our world is the way it is because these people voiced their thoughts, their plans, their ideas, and they became something. 

Its in the bible, even. Adam and Eve, two very well known figures in the christian and even in secular cultures, altered the way of the world and humanity for ever.

If Adam and Eve had never eaten of the tree of knowledge of ZGood and Evil, they would never had=ve know they were naked. They would never have created sin on our lives, and we would all still be living in the Garden of Eden. And life would be much less complicated with God leading us through it all.

Now, you have to know that voicing an idea can be incomprehencably benificial (or destructive) to the way our future looks now. If the war in uganda is stopped, then all those people will be able to live their lives in peace again, and children will not be put through such mental distortion.

Invisible Children is the most amazing charity i have ever seen. It altered the way i view myself and the way I view our society. And they are doing their part to make a difference in the lives of millions, and i will support them as much as i can, even of that just means getting the word out.

Thank you for listening to my rants once again. 
~Aaron Jay

Lines

The lines scarred over
Tell the story of a lover.
A lover that hurt.
A lover that burns.

But a lover that heals,
And a lover that seals.
These wounded arms are not results of this lover.
These wounded arms are the result of His healing.

And even though she cries,
And everything will not always be perfect,
It will never be better than the day
Her wounds were healed.

And every time she sees her arms,
Her eyes start to water,
Because what she sees is a reminder
That someone who once loved her,
Always will.

Here I am...

What is the point of sitting behind the sidelines, when this world has problems and they allneed to be fixed? How far do you expect to go if your not putting out? To help with changerequires something of yourself, and its hard to believe how many people don't realize that. If people realized that to change, you must give of yourself, i think that more people would stick with things they are trying to do.
People give up on things when they are too hard. People should not give up, but push themselves harder than ever before. the harder you push yourself the more you will get done when it comes to changing things.
But rest is a requirement also. Without rest, you get so burnt out that you will never get anything done.

So ultimately, what i am saying is, work hard, but not too hard. And push yourself, butalways give yourself time to rest.

When you are being called to do something or lead in a direction, call unto God and tell Him you are there to fight for Him.

Because, in the end, only those who work for change will prevail...

~Aaron Jay

"If God is for us, Who can be against us?" Romans 8:31 

Invisible Children

So here I am, trying to straighten everything out. I'm in Greenville, IL now. Going to school. 

My friend kelli and I are talking about doing a Fundraiser. The school is big on changing the world, and i would love to do just that. 

Invisible Children is one of the most incredible documentaries i have ever seen (though i haven't seen many...), and is a more than worthy cause for a school to fight for. And things like these always go unnoticed in societies like ours, always focused on our country and things going on here, or getting involved in thing that don't really matter if we're involved in. but Invisible Children and its case is something our country could really take hold of and end. 

There is a genocide. Millions are being killed and generations are being recruited to help kill. and these are children. And they are being forced to kill and torture people. And it is ruining them.

So....

Kelli and I are going to fight for a cause. And a fricking good one too. We are trying to get a big thing going and get everyone involved.

So pray for it. And us.

And the kids. Always the kids. And their families, who struggle for their lives and their childrens lives. And do anything they can to keep these kids safe.

Anything at all.

Oh Crap...

Well, this pretty much sucks.  

One of my good friends is dating this person that i like. 

like a lot. 

Im not going to give any specifics, because, well, no one really needs to know, but whatever. Im blogging it anyways.



I fairly recently decided to not date until i get to college, because i am going to college out of state, and i don't want to get into a serious relationship and then take off. Of course, it just so happens that i end up finding like two people i like. Which really sucks, because I am at that point that i always get to where i really want to date someone. Its been like three months since my last relationship, and it is really hard for me at this point to not date.

You see, I've had a girlfriend almost consistantly since like seventh grade, and i have never really gone much longer than like three months without having a girlfriend since. Nad not, a six month wait is going to kill me. This is about to get really really hard for me. I am so not looking forward to it.

So, encouragement at any point in time would be excellent. Thanks, and love you all...
~Aaron Jay

Music

Music is.... amazing.

Its expresive in ways words could never be. Even the lyrics in songs mean so much more when put to music. It is hard to describe the connection musicians have when performing together. It is something only a musician could ever understand.

And, probably not because of music, but definitely enhanced by it, i have this sensetivity that you don't find in average guys. I mean more than that which comes from my life that i have no control over. its just this indescribably convinient thing.

If only more people understood it. i cannot tell you how many times I have been asked if i was gay. NO, for crying out loud!!! I'm not gay!!!! (for those who were wondering...)

Well, thank you. I have much more to say, but on  different topic.

~Aaron Jay

Insight... or not...

God is the deepest of all things. There is no end to the knowledge we can have about Him. No one will ever know the end of God, because it is impossible to find. Some people are very very shallow in their view of God, practically not following Him in any way, shape, or form. God is Everything. He is the beginning, and the end, and eveything in between. God is love. Love unconditional. And that is what i want to be. I want to Love everyone i come across. I don't care what people look like. i don't really even care what they are doing with their lives religiously. I mean, i obviously care, but it should have no effect on my thoughts toward them. 

I am an accepting person. In the past, i was easily manipulated, following the friends I thought i had, and befriending their friends, denying friendship with anyone they found unworthy. Now, and throughout my high school career, acceptance came naturally to me. Becoming a christian in my Late seventh grade year,  not knowing what i was actually doing, and becoming a Christian knowingly in the eighth grade changed my view of people. this was actually a recent revelation to me. i had never really noticed how much Christianity had changed me. how different my life actually was. Before, I could not have lived my days without friends, and rejection was always a huge factor in my life. Now, i am authentically changed, as accepting as I know how to be, and never rejecting a friend. not willingly, at least. there were times when, since i moved around so much, my contact with people drifted into nothingness. I always made new friends, tho. always found a way to satisfy my need for friendship. i always had someone, and was always willing to make firends. 

You see, i love meeting new people. Thats one thing i love about riding the bus to work. i always will have the chance to meet people. there is a neverending flow of people on spokane buses. And meeting people helps me to know that there is a chance that i can make an impact on the world.

Changing the world is one of my many, many life goals, though some are much less realistic than others. But God is there to help us reach those unrealistic goals. those goals that everyone says you can't succeed in. but of course you can succeed. As it is written in the bible, ANYTHING is possible with god. and by anything, God means anything, everything, every sound, every dream you could ever hope to have, is possible. ANYTHING AT ALL.

And God is always there to help. and always will be.

Forever a servant of Christ,
Aaron Jay

Christianity

Upon my continuing reading of “Blue Like Jazz”, I have come to realize that I share a lot of the same views as Donald Miller, the author. I have just read a part when he says that he doesn’t really support Christianity, because in the modern society, Christianity is a very fluid term. He supports Christian spirituality. That is taking the life of Christ and living it. Not, as viewed by many of the modern not Christians (for lack of a better term), living as a Christian that the modern world sees as rude, or arrogant. They have to know that you are a person who cares about them before they know that you are a Christian. Being a Christian in today’s society is a turn-off when it comes to friendship. No one wants to be friends with a radical Christian that doesn’t give a crap about anyone but themselves. I know I don’t.

 

But being a Christian is a bigger thing than just ‘being a Christian’. Its about acceptance, and about heart, and love. So from today, for a trial period, I am going to try to not be a hypocritical, stereotypical Christian. I am not going to seek out people to share my faith with. I am going to pray that people come to me. I don’t like talking to random people about Christianity right off the bat. I want to get to know them as a person before anything else. I need them to know that I sincerely care about them.

 

So that’s how I am going to live. I am going to be a God-seeking, not people-seeking, Christian with a mission. That mission is to share my faith with the curious. Not the unwilling to listen.

 

Until next time,

~Aaron Jay

The Beginning

This is the first blog outside of myspace I have ever written. Hopefully, these blogs will be inspirational. My goal is to touch lives with mine, and to help those who do not know Christ to come to know Him. I guarantee that some of the things I will write in these blogs will make little to no sense to some, but that is absolutely ok.

Anyways, here it goes….

 

I recently started a book called “Blue Like Jazz”. It is, I can honestly say, the number one most amazing book I have ever read. It is inspirational, yet a personal. I cannot even begin to describe the incredibility of this book. And I am only seven chapters into it.

 

The first thing I want to describe is my love for Christ.  Upon reading many books and inquiring as to the meaning of books of the bible, I have come to realize that there is SO much more to Christianity than Christianity. I know that that sounds vague, but I am being entirely truthful. Christianity as a whole is a belief in Jesus Christ as your lord and saviour. And to be entirely honest, I find that shallow. I mean, not that Jesus Christ is our saviour, but that that is how Christianity as a whole is viewed. In that context, I guess you could say Mormons ARE Christians, but not in the smaller context. Christianity as a religion, as opposed to a subtitle, is entirely different. Christianity as a religion, or as a relationship, as many like to refer to it, is much much deeper than that. Christianity is not just a belief. It is a faith. A vision. A way of life. Many people think of Christians as hypocritical, selfish, and naïve. And admittedly, many are. But not all of them. Not even most of them are. But the way that they are portrayed in modern day society, and the ones that actually get out into the world and do something about what they believe are the ones who are hypocritical. The ones who are selfish.

 

I know that many people reading this may have lost me a while back, so here is the general idea in a word.STEREOTYPES.  I know it is a strong word to use, and a lot of people don’t want to admit using them. I am included. But people do use them. Almost everyone does it. Viewing all teenagers as drugees or troublemakers, viewing older people as slow drivers, or viewing Christians as hypocritical.

 

Christians are viewed as hypocritical because, in many cases, they are. Many times, Christians go out into the world and bash on people. Gays, other religions, even just the unsaved. And when everyone knows that CHRIST IS LOVE, no one is going to want to be a part of a group of liars. A group of people who say that Christ is love and they are supposed to live like Christ, become like Christ, and yet all they see is the unforgiving, unloving side of the religion, which should not and ultimately doesn’t exist in a true Christian.

 

It is hard to reach out to people, especially when Christians pushed them away from Christianity in the first place. They are some of the hardest to reach, because they think that they have got it all figured out. That ALL Christians are rude, and not accepting people, when it is in fact the opposite. REAL Christians ARE loving. They ARE accepting. And theyARE forgiving. And they want nothing more that to help you to know that transformation. That eternal life that they are always talking about. It exists. You just have to know where to look. And they are there to help you find it.

 

Well, that’s all I’ve got to say for now. So, I’ll see you next time I have something to say…

~Aaron Jay