Understandably impossible...

Sometimes, i can't understand how we are. I don't mean. like how we were created, thats blaringly obvious to me. What i don't understand is, how in the world can we be the way we are as people, when others bring so much light to our lives? 

Even those who don't understand and know the love of God should be able to see it. I mean, there are so many people out there who have some sense of the world, and can understand that there is something more. There has to be.

Would it even make sense for us to exist if there wasn't a creator? Or a bigger plan? How did it all start? Even if you are an evolutionist, where did it all start? Don't be thinking about the "big bang theory", because thats not even close to the answer I'm looking for. I mean where did that start? Even if it is true, there had to be some way it was created. Some beginning. Everything has a beginning.

Everything, that is, except God. But, for some odd reason, I can understand that. I don't know how, but that is easier for me to grasp than thinking that the "Big Bang" has just been reoccurring for years and years. It makes no sense. It had to start somewhere.

But I think i know. It started with God. And i think it is easier to grasp, because I know that God is a being. I know that He is more than a figment of imaginations, as some people seem to think. And i know that He is more than just an excuse for mankind to find purpose.

And don't ask me how I can be so sure. I don't understand it. I just know, somehow, even through all my doubts and all my thoughts that somehow, somewhere, there is God. He is there, and He does love us. Every single one of us. 

Even when we don't love him back....

~Aaron Jay