So an old year is fading, and a new one beginning. This year is going to be big for me.
I have some demons I have to face, and a future that begs to begin. I have a lot to do, and a year to do it. Be prepared for a lot of ups and downs, a lot of tears, a lot of pain, and a lot of venting.
Be ready, also, for a lot of joy. A lot of reconciliation. A lot of finding myself and living as I am called to live.
This year, I have people I need to be real with. I have people who need to learn more about my heart, my feelings, my life in general....
There has been a common theme in these past few days. Something that I didn't really expect, but that, since I've been setting my eyes on God once again, I know need to be done. I feel a call to live life to its fullest. To stop being afraid, and begin giving my life the attention it deserves.
I'm a very fearful person. I try not to be, but trying doesn't lead to success. Doing does. So from this moment on, I will begin to be truthful and honest. I will be genuine in who I am, and with those that I speak to.
My life is going to take a turn for the better. And while I'm a little scared, I know that everything will be worth it in the end. This is going to be a rough year, but it's going to be an amazing ride.
Thank you for hanging in there. And do me a favor: don't let me be the only one. Live your life fearlessly. I know realistically that not everyone believes in God, or even thinks its a realistic idea, but live fearlessly. Not for Him, necessarily, but for yourself. Society fills us with fear, teaches us to strive to live in safety, but as my friend Kelsey and I like to say, what is life without risk?
Go out, and live fearlessly.
Aaron Jay
